Sista sLedge.r

It seems that Thanksgiving came a little late for some people. While I was so scared/excited about my feelings for Baloo I just learned that one of my friends just received the keys to her boyfriend's apartment. And another friend is moving into their boyfriend's apartment. It's like cupid is a very good shot. Ok, just one more thing and then I promise to get back to your regularly scheduled blog posts about unattractive people and children I make cry.

Last night I called my best married older (but not that old) friend Steph. I used to work with Steph and I house-sat for her and her Gorgeous Doctor Husband when I lived in the Detroit area. Steph is from Texas and she's very organized and headstrong and driven like myself. She's since moved back to Texas with Gorgeous Doctor Husband and they have an awesome house with a new little baby and one on the way. I would love to be Steph when I grow up except for the children. Anyway, I called Steph to discuss my newfound feelings and whether or not they were silly or justified. I was mostly concerned about developing feelings in such a short time span. Baloo and I have been together for almost two months. However, since we live so close, we see each other every day and he even has his own toothbrush at The Dungeon. Steph gave me very good advice. She said that I'm in a good place to have a relationship now. I'm working, I'm going to school, and I'm happy with myself. She talked about things like being open and taking risks. How I dated duds in the past and it's better to open up to someone who's worth it. To take one day at a time and not get too concerned about what will happen 2 months from now. And to compromise. It's not fair that Baloo is the only one expressing how he feels about me and I say nothing. I have to verbalize it at some time and it has to be what I'm truly feeling.

So I called Baloo over last night and told him a few things. I thought about it first. I didn't tell him that I love him. Cause I don't think I do…yet. But I told about my conversation with Steph and how he makes me want to be a better person and just what was on my mind. And it was scary, but easy. And I know he appreciated it.

Labels: baloo, relationship