Sunday, April 06, 2008 

Dealing

This weekend was pretty uneventful until Saturday night. I returned a phone call from Daddy Kiki. We talked for a while and I told him about my plans for the night. Then he revealed to me that he took himself to the emergency room the previous day because he was in pain. Now it's nothing life threatening, but there's a possibility that he might have to have surgery. I felt numb. I think this is one of the very few times where I've actually had to take care of my dad. And it scares the shit out of me. I told you how weird it was to see my dad in the recovery room after his colonoscopy. Well this is going to be even weirder. Because they're actually going to be cutting him open.

I just feel like I'm under a lot of stress. I'm trying not to be too dramatic, but it's just not fun taking care of a parent. And it makes me think of how much time we actually have with our parents. Again, DK is not going in for any major surgery and his condition is not life threatening, but he is getting up there in age. And I'm trying to wrap my brain around how much of my life do I need to live independently, and how much of my life I need to devote to my dad. I already feel a little guilty for leaving Texas and moving to Michigan. But that's something that I needed to do for my own sanity. Now I'm considering leaving the country after grad school. Should I go? Will I be too far away from my dad? How much do I need to sacrifice to be there for him. These are the things I'm thinking about.

On a brighter note I think I'm going to start taking Hoodia. I know absolutely nothing about it, but I hear it doesn't give you the jitters like regular diet pills, and I feel that it's diet season for me. I'll let you know how it goes on the Hoodia.

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