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Thursday, June 12, 2008 


For the first time in a while, I was really horny. I think it's the fact that Baloo is gone so many days at a time. The anticipation of seeing him throws me into a frenzy. I was surprised that I actually finished my workout tonight. Because all I could think about while on the treadmill was how I was going to tear him apart.

After the gym I went to Barnes & Noble and picked up the new David Sedaris book. That's Baloo's favorite author. I rushed home and took a shower, put on scented lotion and a flirty and fun Victoria's Secret nightshirt. I wrapped his book and called Baloo over. "Which one do you want to open first? Me, or what's in the box?" Sensing that the box wouldn't take long to unwrap, he chose that first. He was very surprised and wanted me to read it to him when he spends the night. He likes when I read to him cause I do all the voices of the characters.

But then, he didn't want to unwrap me. He was tired. He'd worked a long day out in the heat and he was exhausted. I told him that I understood and told him to go back home and rest some more. I was going to hang out at my house and we'd get together later on tonight. So he came over about 4 hours later. And now he's in my bed and I'm sitting here writing at my computer. I can't blame him. I'm tired too. But I only get in this mood when the earth is tilted just right on its axis and the stars are aligned and I stand on one foot and squint. Translation: It doesn't happen often. And he's tired.

I'm not mad at him or upset. I think this is just one of those moments when I realize that reality has set in. And, the world doesn't revolve around me. Just like there are many nights that I'm tired (or feeling obese) there are nights when he feels tired too. I guess that's what it means to be in a grown up relationship. This is harder than I thought!

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Yeah, I keep talking to my friends about how this whole adulthood thing isn't all that it's cracked up to be... I mean yeah supposedly now that I'm of age I can do whatever the hell I want, but nobody tells you when you're a kid anxiously awaiting your adulthood that just because you are allowed to do it doesn't mean you'll be able to do it... Physically, financially, psychologically...

I think we need to figure out a way to revert to those childhood days of boundless energy, and a mindset of wonder, awe, and endless possibility... I'd be willing to give up a lot of the things that make me an adult if that were something that were an option!

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